Mariah Carey - Side Effects

It's M.C. and Y.J. another hit, okay

We lookin' fine, takin' off, saw us on a runway

On any given Sunday, Monday, Tuesday

They try to confuse me, I never let 'em use me

 

 

I was a girl, you was a man

I was too young to understand

I was naive, I just believed

Everythin' that you told me

 

 

Said you were strong, protectin' me

Then I found out that you were weak

Keepin' me there under your thumb

'Cause you were scared that I'd become

 

 

Much more than you could handle

Shinin' like a chandelier that decorated

Every room inside the private hell we built

And I dealt with it like a kid I wished I could fly away

 

 

But instead, I kept my tears inside

'Cause I knew if I started I'd keep cryin' for the rest of my life

With you I finally built up the strength to walk away

Don't regret it but I still live with the side effects

 

 

Wakin' up scared some nights still dreamin' 'bout them violent times

Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside

Still a little defensive thinkin' folks be tryin' to run my life

Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects

Side effects, side effects, side effects

 

 

Vacant inside, no one was there

Couldn't be real, had to keep quiet

Once in a while put up a fight

It's just too much night after night

 

 

After a while I would just lie

You wasn't wrong, said you was right

Did what I could just to survive

Couldn't believe this was my life

 

 

Flickerin' like a candle, doin' my best to handle

Sleepin' with the enemy, aware that he was smotherin'

Every last part of me so I broke away

And finally found the strength to breathe

 

 

I kept my tears inside

'Cause I knew if I started I'd keep cryin' for the rest of my life

With you I finally built up the strength to walk away

Don't regret it but I still live with the side effects

 

 

Wakin' up scared some nights still dreamin' 'bout them violent times

Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside

Still a little defensive thinkin' folks be tryin' to run my life

Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects

Side effects, side effects, side effects

 

 

Hey, hey, hey, let's go

Hey magnifico or should I say magnificent?

Ain't nothin' worth your happiness

And I ain't carin' who you're with

 

 

Misery love company

So we ain't tryin' to hang with y'all

Hurt you if ya let 'em in

Gotta keep ya sucka smilin'

 

 

Keep tryin' to play 'pology

I tell him I ain't bowlin' tho

Think they want me outta here

I tell 'em I ain't goin' tho

 

 

Side effects be drowsiness

Loneliness, how is this?

I think they call it hateration

What can you prescribe for this?

 

 

Forgive but I can't forget

Every day I deal with this

I live with the side effects

But I ain't gonna let them get the best of me

 

 

Forgive but I can't forget

Every day I deal with this

I live with the side effects

But I ain't gonna let them get the best of me

 

 

I kept my tears inside 'cause I knew

If I started I'd keep cryin' for the rest of my life

With you I finally built up the strength to walk away

Don't regret it but I still live with the side effects

 

 

Wakin' up scared some nights still dreamin' 'bout them violent times

Still little protective 'bout the people that I let inside

Still a little defensive thinkin' folks be tryin' to run my life

Still little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects

Side effects, side effects, side effects